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Visit to the doctor on Wednesday has left me with yearning for change. Change now!

I still can't believe I got so visibly upset in talking about my weight. Tears pouring, pouring down my face. I couldn't stop them, get a hold of myself. Doctor seemed concerned, but I always have that kind of reaction when I talk about something that is close to me, hard for me, has been an embarassment.

I can change. I am changing. I hope this represents the change I yearn for.